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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Jamie Jabber 76 - The point of no return; can you stomach the truth or will you close this video?

How important is it that you maintain the excuse of ignorance? Find out by watching how you react to this.

Jamie...deciphering Fair to Midland lyrics: Bright Bulbs and Sharp Tools

Fair to Midland is my favorite band in the world. I think what makes them so amazing, besides their sound, is their lyrics. Lyrics that are to the point, straightforward, have almost no value to me. Lyrics that make you think, that make you work ever so slightly to find their meaning...that's satisfying.

Of course, that means that the lyrics run the risk of meaning nothing at all.

Like I was saying in a previous Jamie Jabber, words are designed to go into YOUR head and pull from your reference library. This means that when you start getting into obscure lyrics and loose meanings, the definition now becomes widely varied across people. That's fantastic...it's like we each get our own unique emotions from the same words where as something like, "I love you, baby, I need you in my life" leaves almost no room for interpretation while "Suffice it to say, there's a time and a place so I wait for the tug of war and who you'll pull for" can have a wide range of interpretations DEPENDING ON WHO LISTENS TO IT.

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Today, I wanted to decipher a line from "Bright Bulbs and Sharp Tools", an unreleased demo for a song on their upcoming album. Here are the lyrics followed by a link to the song.


Now heaven knows I've got one short damn fuse
So come sit down a spell while I light up the room
If walls could talk, they'd be know-it-all's
So we live in the sticks, there are some fish you can catch
And it makes my skin crawl
I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed, so what's the use?
And she knew, she knew...

He fights like hell because he wants to glow
And would tackle the sun to be a bright bulb
I wonder if he'll wake us up in time?

He's gray
And has to hide somewhere in between black and white
Is he insane? But never was praying, before it's over,
I hope he takes you too

They say attack can be your best defense
And I've got mother's smile, both my dad's fists
John Doe escapes, carry his name
And when it's time to sign, ask where; not why

And it makes my blood boil
Those black letter days, all their mail just winds up lost

He's gray
And has to hide somewhere in between black and white
Is he insane? But never was praying, before it's over,
I hope he takes you too

You see whispers in the winter
Temper doesn't laugh

And every spring, I hear them sing, I hear them sing
(Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh)
Every spring, I hear them sing, I hear them sing
Every spring, I hear them sing

If he's going down
If he's going under the ground
I hope he takes you too

Whoa, whoa, whoa

I hope he takes you too


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vvfy8ym08k8

The line we are going to be looking at today is:

He fights like hell because he wants to glow
And would tackle the sun to be a bright bulb
I wonder if he'll wake us up in time?


Like with most of their lyrics, you need to invest a little bit of effort to find your own definition. That work, that effort, makes the meaning you find very rewarding. So it wasn't until I thought about it that I came up with a very neat interpretation.

"He fights like hell because he wants to glow" to me means that the subject of this song works very hard at what he does because of the way he wants to appear to other people. It is so important to him what others think of him that it is his fuel to succeed.

"And would tackle the sun to be a bright bulb" to me signifies that he is willing to destroy anything around him that is better or performs greater than he does. The contrast that would make him look less is something he can't abide. But tackling the sun is stupid...the sun is massive. You will die. It's impossible. Still, his will to tackle the sun, like a little dog picking a fight with a much bigger dog, is unfazed. He will kill himself trying to stifle those that are better than he is.

"I wonder if he'll wake us up in time?" is really neat. It takes the literal consequence of him destroying the sun and asks the question, "Now that the sun is gone, he will have to take the responsibilities of the sun. The sun did such a good job of waking us up on time...I wonder if he'll wake us up in time. This can then be taken a few different ways, for example, dealing with the consequences of the actions of a person who destroys others to be the highest on the totem pole.

So yeah, that's that. There is so much good stuff in these songs that I will probably be doing this for a while.

Monday, January 18, 2010

New perspective on old pain

After talking to an old friend (thanks, dude) and reading a few pages of a special book, I have come to the following conclusions. They feel right for me.

As a human, my first duty is to survive. The skills needed were passed down to me from other survivors. My ability to fight, defend myself and others I care about, to assess situations and to choose who I spend time with all help.

The second duty, after survival, is to replicate. Make stronger, better, smarter offspring by mating with another person as strong, or stronger, than me.

These are facts. They can not be argued or debated. We, as humans, are hard-wired to operate this way. We may cover these instincts up with new labels, rules and expectations, but really nothing changes.

That drive to love and be loved, that isn't you. That isn't your choice. That attraction you have for someone, that isn't you. That isn't your choice. It's your wiring. You may have a lot of control over certain aspects in your life, but this isn't one.

When you aren't in a relationship and you want to be, it hurts. That isn't you. That isn't your choice. In the same way that you are thirsty when you don't have water and hungry when you don't have food, your body sends you negative signals which are meant to tell you that you are failing at securing a mate and are therefor failing to pass on your genes. We call that "heartache" or "loneliness".

When a man pursues a woman and that woman accepts, there is a deep, deep satisfaction that is present. What is happening is that this aspect of the man is satiated. The body sends positive signals to the man which tells him that he is doing this right, keep it up. We call this "being in love".

A man then invests in the woman. He spends time, money and effort to continue the relationship and to solidify it. She is his mate. Like his water, food and rest, she is an essential part of him. And his mate is the only one that can stop the need that consumes him consistently. She is invaluable.

There are predators, though, who want a mate as well. This isn't their choice. It's the way things are. When they come prowling around your investment, you NEED to defend it. Your chance at pro-creating is in jeopardy and your body knows this. It sends you signals to be upset, violent and defensive. These signals are here because the men that survived before us had them and used them. They work. Using their strength, they were able to ward off predators and protect their investment in the same way that an animal protects its food from other animals.

When the woman leaves for another predator, there is a massive issue. You can no longer defend the woman because she doesn't want to be defended. She wants to be free of you. Someone else got her attention. You failed at keeping her as yours. Even though there are many other factors besides this that can cause a break up, your body doesn't care; it's interpreted the same today as it was thousands of years ago. Your body sees this and sends massive waves of pain to tell you that you should NEVER LET THAT HAPPEN AGAIN. EVER!! YOU ARE FAILING AT PASSING ON YOUR GENES BECAUSE YOU FAILED TO SECURE YOUR INVESTMENT FROM PREDATORS!! That is emotion. Its signals are DESIGNED to be miserable. They are designed to teach you a lesson. This heartache doesn't go away until you feed the need for a mate. In a lot of instances, this is why so much pain disappears when a new mate is introduced into your life.

Understand the simplicity of your pain. There is an issue: and there is a symptom, or signal, that is activated to alert you. You need water: thirst. You need food: hunger. You need rest: fatigue. You need a mate: heartache.

What about the people in the past that have violated this process? Be angry. Be upset. These are the factors that kept the species growing. The need to make an example out of them isn't just some blind rage, it's a genuine defense mechanism; it's a message that you send to everyone else who might try the same thing.

What about the need for monogamy? Because you have been designed to protect your investment, a rule has been set: do not let anyone else touch your woman. This spills over into the idea of monogamy. Monogamy feels right because it is in harmony with the basic, fundamental rule of protecting your investment. For me, any other logic fails to have an effect on this decision. The wiring is there.

We live in a time where we are constantly walking the balance between caveman consciousness and cosmic consciousness. In this way, we no longer look at just the human needs, but the spiritual ideas such as the ability to grow from experiences, that we are here to learn something, that everyone is connected, that we can't let ego destroy our experience, etc...but there is a LOT to be said about the rules that are in place.

I feel as if we don't need to ditch one for the other. There can be harmony. That doesn't mean that we should strive exclusively for cosmic consciousness, though. Caveman consciousness isn't replaced. Because it's wired into us, we can't decide to just turn it off. As long as it is active, there will be a need to understand women and men and how and why our emotions are working.

Now, this is also from the mind. It is up to your higher self to accept or deny this information, but it's further proof that it isn't YOU doing it, it's your mind and body. Surviving the best way they know how.

This is the human experience. Be aware of the rules and create situations where you thrive within their boundaries. Make life happy and eventful. Do you want your ex back? For now, it seems like that would have the most value since it would not only give you a compatible mate, but it would also nullify a lot of the regret. What a great prospect! Losing her and getting her back would net you more satisfaction than just having her ever did. Though you did go through a lot of misery, so it probably will balance out.

Or do you want another woman? Someone more attractive, someone more compatible? For me, when I start getting a taste of other women that I am REALLY into, I think it will change. My mind and body will focus less on getting her back and more on netting the next big catch.

Friday, January 8, 2010

The friend zone

So I have been hearing a lot about this friend zone...it's the place you don't want to end up with a girl that you are into. It seems like such an easy trap to fall into. When you are the nice guy, the one she can come to and talk to, the one who will listen, the one who will go out with her and do stuff, it seems like you are giving her enough of you that she has no need to enter into a serious relationship with you. She gets the benefit of YOU without having to give much of anything.

Now that's not to say that you don't get anything out of being a friend of a girl you like, but what you get is much different than what you want.

It seems like this kind of relationship sends a few different signals that lead to fail. First off, you seem to be telling her that you are happy. That you are enjoying your time with her. While that's true, that isn't the end result of your efforts, it's the side effect. You want to show her how awesome you are and how well you compliment her. All she can see, though, is that you are benefiting her, she likes it and that seems to be your intention since you appear to be at peace with it.

Second, this kind of relationship sends the signal that you enjoy the role you are playing and that makes it easier for her to PUT you in that role in HER mind.

Third, it shows that you are willing to give an insane amount of yourself to her in exchange for little. This tells her that she is valuable, awesome, exceptional, special, etc. It tells her that she is so valuable, awesome, exceptional, special, etc., that she doesn't NEED to do ANYTHING in order to keep the benefits coming. On her end, she can reap all of these benefits without having to do any work.

Ultimately, what it comes down to is that a woman will get SO MUCH good stuff from a guy who is trying to get her attention and show how good he fits, while doing nothing to earn it besides being awesome, that she will have NO INCENTIVE to give back. That hurts. A lot. And before you know it, you are a friend and since she has labeled you as such, the killer line is played:

"I don't want to risk losing you as a friend"

She values the friendship. You value the potential relationship. They are different.

How do you prevent going into the friend zone. And once you are there, is there a way out?

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

You're dumb. Stop it.

So...I am trying to understand the idiocy and ignorance that a LOT of people have around vegan food. It's one thing to not know what something tastes like, but it's another to be disgusted by it without ever having it.

And the BS excuse of, "I have had vegan x before" doesn't fly either...like there is only ONE way to make that?! Does that apply to anything? No, it doesn't. Have you ever had a traditional meal at restaurant B that you normally get at restaurant A, but this version is way below your standards? Of course you have (or a similar experience). How can you NOT understand that there are different ways to make the same thing?

Your tastes and your reaction to tastes are responding on a very simple level.

Baked goods, for example. You usually need sugar, flour, fat, binding and flavor. YOU DON'T NEED DAIRY. YOU DON'T NEED EGGS. They have jobs that are handled just fine by substitutes!

AND YET!!!! THE IDEA OF A VEGAN COOKIE, CAKE OR BREAD IS INCREDIBLY UNAPPETIZING?!

I made vegan chocolate chip cookies for the office last week. They were amazing. I got compliments for days. One girl ate three of them. She just told me that when she went to her personal trainer yesterday and went over what she ate, his reaction to the cookies was, "Vegan cookies? That sounds disgusting."

Disgusting. That is the word he chose.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!! You act like vegan food is made of sticks, mud and gravel. Like vegan standards have to be so low that vegans just get used to sucky food. Get bent.

There are two things that I think cause this reaction:

1-Ignorance. People were brought up a certain way and, unless they have a reason, will NOT accept the idea that they don't have the full picture. Accepting the possibility that any kind of vegan food can be amazing is also accepting the possibility that they don't quite have the world figured out yet. So what do they do? Let go of ego and say that they can't make a judgment on it until they experience it? No. That would be responsible. Instead, they insist that things are the way they think they are without needing to experience it in ANY form at all. This is what people do. Because people are dumb.

2-Guilt. The idea of being vegan also comes with the idea that vegans are "right" and others are "wrong". For everyone who is not vegan, that is irritating/threatening. So, again, how do they combat it? Put it down, insult it, state that it's "not normal" or weird. Or disgusting. Basically, they say anything they can to convince themselves that, yes, they were right all along and it's the vegan who is the odd man out.

I have to preface my explanation EVERY TIME someone asks, "Why are you vegan" by saying that I don't like talking about it because people get defensive. To which they always reply with, "Oh no, I won't do that!"

What you eat makes no difference to me. In fact, what you DON'T eat is a bigger deal to me.

Combine these two factors and it's easy to see how people can be so incredibly close minded regarding vegan anything.

What's worse is when an "anti-vegan" tries to eat something vegan. They are coming from a place of aggression and hostility. They aren't looking for the amazing, they are looking for the fail. Saying things like, "There is something different about this cake..." instead of, "GOD that's moist!!" is all the indication you need to understand that they don't even want to bother to begin to accept the idea that it can be good...because that would open the possibility that their labels are incorrect and THAT is just too much.

What do you think of vegan frosting?

Guess what is in frosting! Sugar and fat! The end.

This idea of replacing key components with other, non-animal key components absolutely baffles people. Like, the really DON'T UNDERSTAND how you can NOT use eggs. And they don't want to understand.

Maybe you will taste a difference, but does it matter? Are you so obsessed over the fact that there is no milk in the cake that you refuse to acknowledge the mint, rich chocolate and super moist texture.

Yes. Yes it does seem to matter for some people.

Here is the deal. If I ever offer you anything vegan. EVER. Eat it. Don't smell it like you are smelling a turd in your hand, don't nibble on it reluctantly like you are biting the head off of a cockroach, EAT IT!!! IT'S FINE!!!!!!

/rant

Monday, November 23, 2009

Retro was the theme this weekend

This entire weekend had a theme, and that was retro/old school.

Mid week, Dave and I decided to make a video game for our friend Val for her birthday. We took all of the nonsensical things that she liked and put them all in a game. A lot of the elements were from old school games and it was fun using music, sound effects and graphics in this hodgepodge of a game.

On Saturday, I had a reunion with some of my classmates from 6th, 7th and 8th grade. It was all kinds of awesome. We shared stories about the past, what we had been up to, etc. It was great.

Then, on Sunday night, a friend was in from California and I was able to get pretty much everyone who used to hang out back in the day together. I also rented The New Super Mario Bros, which is Mario Bros. but with 4 people playing at once. It was like old school gaming with old school friends, but the game was newer and the friends were older. Jeff even delayed the start of the game because his mom was texting him, which is oddly similar to how it used to be when we were kids, only she used to scream for him instead of sending texts.

It's strange how much history repeated this weekend. It was great.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Jessica's poem!

Poem from an old classmate and friend.  1996.

Bugs.

By Jessica Burns

Bugs, bugs
Including slugs
Along with bumble bees;
Those fuzzy yellow things with wings
That make their homes in trees.

These things of such contempt and hate
I wish they would move out of state!
But there is nothing I can really do
(Except kill an ant or two.)

Only if the world were bug-free,
What a wonderful place that would surely be!
But with every life I do deprive
A fateful day will soon arrive.
So as I hold up my nose,
This poem comes to a sudden close.

*applause*


It should also be noted that under the memories section, it is printed: "In the morning (8A) Jessica Burns would always pray for "poverty world-wide, any upcoming tests, and your families and mine.""

I COMPLETELY forgot that she used to do that!

Good job at being awesome, Jessica!

Monday, August 10, 2009

I am the Wild feautring Audioslave



Jamie's mini-movie of "Into the Wild" with music by Audioslave's "I am the Highway".

The movie is based on a book which is based on a true story of a boy (Christopher Johnson McCandless, AKA Alexander Supertramp) who leaves the world of material objects, lies and society to pursue a spiritual path in the harsh wilderness of Alaska.

It's an amazing film and if you ever have any intention of watching it, DO NOT WATCH THIS unless you don't mind the spoilers.

Below are the lyrics to the song. I don't know if I have ever made a movie/song match this perfect in my life.

Pearls that swim the rift of me
Long and weary my road has been
I was lost in the cities
Alone in the hills
No sorrow or pity
For anything I feel yea

I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky

Friends and liars
Don't wait for me
Cause I'll get on
All by myself
I've put millions of miles
Under my heels
And still too close
To you, I feel

I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightning
I am not your Autumn moon
I am the night
The night

I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightning
I am not your Autumn moon
I am the night

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I was an internet celebrity!

A few years ago I made the video below. It spread like wildfire and now it's everywhere. If you do a Google search for "Bloodsport Mentos" you will see how huge it is. It's amazing.

What's even more amazing is the amount of positive comments. Youtube comments represent about the worst the internet has to offer, but EVERY SINGLE COMMENT (that I have seen) is unexpectedly positive. I have been called a god(lulz).

The video is from a Van Damme movie, Bloodsport. The song is from the Mentos commercials. The Mentos commercials are way WAY stupid and always involve someone in a bad situation that pops a Mentos and gets out of trouble. They are dumb. The scene in Bloodsport had the same tone, but it was serious. I thought they would go well together.

Anyway, here is the video. When you are done watching it, visit the link below to see the comments. It's insane.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_IAb_XmVa8

Jamie Jabber 69 - China

Monday, August 3, 2009

M-GI Prog Blog #1: Chroma Chords

This is our first showing of Chroma Chords. It's designed to keep everyone who is helping with the game informed, but it's a good piece for anyone else who wants to know what we are doing. If you would like to help, join our community at www.m-gi.net.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

China Rickshaw Tour: The Gates of Homes

This had to be shot from the hip. It would have been rude to just point the camera at the guy. So please forgive the shooting.

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